My sadness dressed as anger grows hundreds little feet and she crawls -
all around us.
She’s so slow but she’s fast - she fills the room -
before we know it.
Sits on my back, eats on my soul, grows stronger.
Before I see her - grows little hands - fills up the air.
Before I know, she’s on our table, eats on our food -
and our friends.
She poisons us.
At night, I sit with your torch and I caress her -
my heart is shaken.
I see she’s crying - for my help.
I feel so little. I feel so weak.
I feel so helpless.
Don’t know what to do.
I see she’s crying - for me. She needs to be seen.
She needs my attention - how do I do it?
Before I knew it I became her slave.
That’s not what we do! That’s not what she wants.
That’s not what you taught us!
This is so wrong - but… is it?
What do I do? - Show me the way.
I try to breath - I have no air.
My heart aches - what do I do?
I have poisoned our family.
I have poisoned our friends.
I’m so sorry. I am so sorry.
Can’t even cry - what’s wrong with me?
What’s going on?
Please, baby, hold my hand.
I cannot do this without your help.
“Don’t worry, mama. I’m right here.
I’m by your side.”
Please, baby, hold me -
like you did before you left.
Please, baby, kiss me -
like you did before you left.
Please, baby, please…
please do not leave me.
“Don’t worry, mama, I’m right here.”
I cannot see you, my love, I cannot feel you…
what do I do?
“Close your eyes, mama… there…
Can you feel my kiss?
Can you feel me now, mama?”
No, baby, I can’t…
My eyes want to burst in tears - I can feel them
but they do not.
They cannot. What’s going on?
“Breath, mama, breath! Remember how we did?
We were there for each other every minute of the way!”
Yes, we did…
Yes… we did…